So im about 8weeks and my husband has noticed that I am showing (baby bump) but honestly I cant really tell lol I have actually lost 10pounds which actually scares me but my mother-in-law says its normal lol…..I do get hungry alot but im trying to keep as active as my body lets me…..im super tired so during the day Ill sometimes lay down but its not as often as id like lol…..I do have cravings but ill only eat enough to cure my cravings lol im trying to play it smart ive been taking my prenatal vitamins and I keep burping fish which is gross lol but it will be all worth it in the end…..
[Verse 1]I’m losing myselfTrying to competeWith everyone elseInstead of just being meDon’t know where to turnI’ve been stuck in this routineI need to change my waysInstead of always being weak[Chorus:]I don’t wanna be afraidI wanna wake up feeling beautiful..todayAnd know that I’m okayCause everyone’s perfect in unusual waysSo you see, I just wanna believe in meLa la la la la la la la[Verse 2]The mirror can lieDoesn’t show you what’s insideAnd it, it can tell you you’re full of lifeIt’s amazing what you can hideJust by putting on a smile[Chorus]I’m quickly finding outI’m not about to break downNot todayI guess I always knewThat I had all the strength to make it through[Chorus:]Not gonna be afraidI’m going to wake up feeling beautiful..todayAnd know that I’m okayCause everyone’s perfect in unusual waysSo you see, now, now I believe in meNow I believe
Lately ive been super tired and I for one hate naps I cant stand them but I took a 3hr one today lol…and im still tired tho lol…..I get cravings but trying my best not to give in to them. I dont want to gain too much weight after theb baby is born still waiting to see a obgyn to see how far along I am I believe im 6weeks and ill be 7 on Wednesday! Im super emotional and every little thing makes me cry lol omgsh this is crazy….
Today was my doctor appointment with my primary to let him know I got 2positive test and he wants me to get blood work done so I did and tomorrow I get the results if not tomorrow then friday….just to confirm my pregnancy. …im also waiting to get the ok with my insurance for a obgyn….right now im kinda worried though cause I kinda got light brown kinda looked like blood but I really could be wrong. ….I really hope im just freaking out for nothing I dont want to lose this baby :(
It’s gotten to the point where I cant let anyone not even family members continue to treat me like shit cause all it does is upset me and my baby whose growing inside me is the most important ( a side from the hubby) person I’ve been wanting to become a mother for so long and now I can be I cant risk losing my baby due to stupidity…so from here on out im cutting people off who do nothing but cause problems and stress….cause I’d rather lose them then my unborn child….
So went to the doctor today and they took a urin sample and checked to see if I was pregnant and while we were waiting I looked at my husband and said you know its going to come out negative! And I was right….the doctor gave me meds for being nauseous and dizzy he fears it maybe diabetes gosh I hope not
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Seems like a couple days when im done with my period I start to feel nauseous and getting some headaches what the hell is going on with me? My husband and I had sex 2days straight and I experienced light cramping last night….wtf is going on?
i have no clue what the hell is going on with me….and it is so frustrating!!! it seems like when im off my period for a few days i start to feel so sick like im gonna puke! and i also been getting so headaches. i had a conversation with my husband last night about me having a fear of not being able to have kids cause when i was 15 i was on the depo shot and then after that i was on the pill then a few years later when actually lost my virginity (19yrs old) i got the depo shot again!…..when i turned 15 i was forced to have birth control cause of my mother and father thinking was going to get pregnant at a young age….i honestly think this really messed me up and it hurts me……my husband think its him but i highly doubt it…
My husband has this weird feeling that im pregnant even though im on my period I told him “no baby it’s impossible” he told me “you never know there’s females who have there period and are pregnant” I feel this is highly unlikely but this is something I need to speak to a doctor about cause to be honest I really dont think I am and the only reason hes saying this is cause he knows girls who went through that 0_0 we’ll see when I see the doctor on the 31st the doctor is probably going to look at ke confused lol
So I wake up this morning kinda feel like shit and I do the normal get up and pee (sorry tmi) and there was some light spotting….so idk if its my period or it implantation bleeding -_-…..this is so fusterating
So today im feeling dizzy, nauseous and really tired, and headaches….on top of still waiting on a period to happen….but I keep ththinking to myself no im not pregnant even though everyone else is saying I could me. …..im really trying not to get my hopes up….we’ll see on the 16th
oh and I forgot to mention ive been super moody and sensitive (my poor husband lol)
Day 2 of not having my period and im scared…..mainly scared of not knowing what’s going on if I dont get it by the 16th then im going to have to take a pregnancy test. ….epppp im trying not to think about it lol
I talked to God today and told him my fears and struggles and how I need him and his guidance…..im hoping Im able to atleast have one child. Im a day late on my period we will see if I have it tomorrow or in a week im nervous and ao scared I dont know what to think….all I can do is leave it in Gods hands. …
Sitting out here enjoying the peace and quit all I hear is the wind blowing against the trees and the wind against the windchims….its nice just be outside alone with just my thoughts…..just me and my phone in my hand typing away….
Waking up this morning feeling super nauseous like I did this afternoon when my husband got in the car with pizza (which messed up my stomach) the smell of the pizza really turned my stomach which is weird for me cause I love pizza lol What the hell is going on?
My life is in God’s hands.
I trust and believe in his plan for me.
Although I’ve been a little impatient but I trust when its time it will be the right time….. right now isn’t the right time.
I just wish I wasn’t so emotional :/
It just seems im in one of those moods tonight :(
I’m super emotional…. and I can’t help but feel like I’ll never experience having a baby
It sucks I hate feeling like this…..there are times I just want to cry….I feel like something is wrong with me….it seems like when you really want to be pregnant you can’t but when you don’t you do you become pregnant….. I can’t really explain how I feel to people cause they just don’t understand or care….I’d call my sister but she has a life so I don’t even bother….I know she would get mad if she heard me say that lol
I just can’t help but feel like something is wrong with me?
I’d give just about anything to experience being pregnant and having a baby :(
I always knew I was in love with my husband but I didn’t realize how deep it was…..And tonight was that night when I realized it….I can’t sleep with out him by my side….. I’m seriously going through separation anxiety….. is that unhealthy? Cause I’ve never had this before….. to be honest I feel like its sad that I just barely realized this…..I thought I was in love with my ex but nope that was nothing compared to how I feel about my husband…..I’ve never cried on the phone for him ever!!!! He’s never seen this side of me I normally don’t say how I feel….(which is a bad thing) …..so I’m guessing this is what falling in love is like? I feel so sick right now cause he’s not with me I’m so used to being with him all the time…..I can’t wait to be home with him…..I’m never doing this again…..on the positive side at least he got guy time with my brother(his best friend) so that’s good i guess lol
So I took the test yesterday morning and as I expected negative….I’m not gonna lie I am pretty upset And disappointed….. like I’ve always said its into Gods hands and I trust him I know one day I’ll be a mother…..I just can’t help but think that maybe I won’t be able too cause im not aggressive enough I guess you can say…..idk we’ll see if I get my period next month pretty sure I will just sucks…that when you try it doesn’t happen but when you don’t that’s when it happens :(